"How Long O Lord?"
If you have walked with God long enough, you have probably asked this question before. David asked this in Psalm 13. Yes, the man after God's own heart, the man who touched the very heart of God with his worship, the man specially chosen by God among his more "qualified" brothers to be king. In this Psalm, he poured his heart out to God in desperation, in despair. David felt abandoned by God, felt God's silence to his core. We do not know exactly what David was going through when he spoke this Psalm but something had gone seriously wrong. David felt he might die if God did not say or do something. Feeling dejected and at his wits' end, he cried a desperate, searching prayer. In those 6 short verse that make up Psalm 13, he repeats "how long...?" four times.
Does this sound familiar? We have all had a few or many "how long O God?" moments. "How long O Lord will I remain sick?" "How long O Lord will I be unemployed or stay in this crappy job?" "How long O Lord will my marriage be this bad?" "How long O Lord will my children remain wayward?" "How long O Lord will I remain single?" "How long O Lord will I remain unhappy, depressed, emotionally and mentally tormented?" "How long will I be under spiritual attack?" The list is endless.
At the end of the Psalm (v.5-6), God had still not spoken but David's attitude had changed dramatically; he had moved from despair to praise. He decided to change his focus from what God had not done to what He had done in the past and that gave him the impetus to praise.
"But I have trusted in Your mercy; My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to the Lord , Because He has dealt bountifully with me."
Even when God is silent, He is working on our behalf. Trust in His love; and find a reason to rejoice and praise Him as you wait for your answer. Surely you can find one thing He has done for you; choose to focus on that after you pour your heart out to Him. No matter how bad it looks Jeremiah 29:11 assures me that God will never abandon us or let bad things happen to us. At the end of the day you can be sure the good and the bad will work together for you and I. Be encouraged!